Life..

 Hello,i'm back.

I'm having a bad flu this afternoon when i woke up. And i'm feeling better now. I had my medicine just now but i can't sleep - I'm not feeling sleepy at all. Oh my goodness. What am i supposed to do now? 
Life is a tragedy. Why? If you aren't born with golden spoon in your mouth then you gotta work your ass off your life. If you're born with lotsa money and the road of your entired life had been planned even when you aren't born then you have no fun in your entire whole freaking life- no motivation at all. So what's next? 
Since we can't choose out life- of how we wants it to be. Then make the path ourselves, but how?I'm not sure about it too. And i need to make a plan as well. What i'm gonna do next? Work-no life. No work- no money. It's kinda boring. It's neither this nor that. But at the end of the day. We still chose to work instead. 
I don't really like to plan my life, but i think i have to. Well, i'm doing free lancing at home but it doesn't seems to bring me anywhere. No income and i can't get more stuff and i can't do do any thing.I wanna go study, not because i wanna get a cert but because i need the skills. I need to improve.Because i need money. Well not really because of money. It's my passion and i love doing it. Somehow i don't feel what people feels like : Eeew, wash people leg. Ewww how to earn by washing people's leg. I just feel, i like it- So what? I don't find it disgusting at all. It's not that i like washing people's leg but it's just when you did something good, you'll feel that little smile in your heart. But of cause, overall we worked for money. But at least-I loved what i chose.

So.. I need money to study for more income to come. Where do i find money? Part times? How much can i earn? I'm really stuck here. Study first? Or concentrate on earning money now- like homed based how much can i earn? I'm so sick of staying at home. Yes i admit i'm lazy. But how. Awwww. like how?