Saturday - A night without spending at ph . Went rounding and hunting for food and nice place to chill out with him. *Thinking in process .. * Met him in the afternoon then went to PS for movie - A back-up plan.
Really nice show (: Went shopping . Saw one really nice Hello Kitty watch . Have you met a guy this way .... He told you he needs the toilet so we went . He insist that i go too , so i went . When i'm out , he just look elsewhere and pass you a plastic bag with something inside . I was mad la , cause i don't even want him to waste money . But a part of me feel so delighted , happy - the word to be used . I smiled of cause , he's not romantic . I don't need someone romantic , i just need someone who can make me smile . Well , after movie , we went rounding . LOL cause we had nowhere to go . So we went for bak kut teh at saltun. Been really long since i went there.
So we went to sentosa after supper . Walking on the beach at Sentosa at night is something i always love to do (: Sat down and shut the eyes and listen to the sea . Peace - Is what you'll feel at that moment( especially with someone you love) . Quiet - Is what i wanted (Just with someone you trust) . After that, went back to the usual place for some rest . Don't know why but the both of us just slept like nobody business , too tired for anything .
Next morning went back home for mother's day breakfast (:
" You're the first person who really slept inside my car " Then remember me for i'm the first .
I seems busy , yet i don't know what i'm busy with but i'm just not free .
Last night , he got an accident . Luckily nothing happen except that the car need some operation. Accompany him to the car garage and left his wifey there for some minor opt. But with a sum of money . LOL. Then took train to Vivo , walk around and sat down somewhere . I feel really good sitting there doing nothing , thinking of nothing and without any words . It's a great feeling.
I've been feeling so stone for the whole day . Mood swing . No appetite. But feel so much better after some fresh air . Went home after that , slept untill she msg me ! Tired out man .
What's with caring for somebody else who doesn't appreciate. For friends or for anyone else . Hmmm ?
I'm glad i'm here and there for you , to see you breaking down and cry infront of me . Put aside anything that makes you this way . But i see how you cared for everyone. It's not about how long you know that somebody but it's about how much you understand that somebody . It's not about trust but the bond and the feeling . Be it that weather in future we'll kill each other with a knife or we used to hate each other for some reasons . I chose to be there when you need someone . That's the least i could do anyway . Know what you're doing , know your limit for everything . Leave some space for yourself . You needed some fresh air .
I'm just a phone call away if you need me . You can tell me " Fuck care this , fuck care that .. " But i know how sucky it feels deep inside . you don't have to be strong when you look me in the eye cause i feel the weakness in you . You're weak . Sara , one thing i have to say . I'm glad that i'm there when you're at the lowest point . Stay positive .
It's the footprint we left there , it's the path we've walk together before .
before one day i forget the feeling , bring me back to look for it again .
Because i'm alway the one who watched you walking away ..
What's best when it can't be the best anymore? If having to be in a state of clear mind and to be troubled . Then i'll rather be in half consious. Or maybe , just nothing .
If you were those drugs , i'll chose to have it everyday and keep myself addicted even if at the end of the day , it'll bring harm to me..
Sometimes i wonder , why ?
Why is there unhappiness . Are we born to solves problem ? Then why are we even born.
The point here is , because unhappiness might lead to happiness .
Feelings don't last , if it's not being maintance well .
I could love you like it's the end of the world now . but if one day , i'm too tired to hold on to you anymore or if i collapse one day . Live your life to the fullest . Because i know , you have your dreams you have your love and you have your future .
Look for girls who calls you their love. Look for girls who tears without any reason but just by looking in your eye . Look for girls who'll wait patiently . Look for girls whose willingly to do anything beyond the expectation .
And girls , who'll want to have your baby without asking you to be responsible for that.
If one day , you gonna leave again . Leave me with a baby of yours , so i could keep the love forever .
My love for you is like the batteries , and you're the charger .
BUT If one day , it goes flat and it couldn't be charge anymore, keep it aside .
Alright, I find myself naggy .
Night , to all that i love .
Lastly , never tell a lies because it'll never be just one lies .
I'm sorry if i lied .
