Stress ?

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Went to Darling's house to stay last night. Went for movie at PS before heading to her house at 12plus. Watched Fifty Dead Men Walking , not bad the movie but its like polictical movie . Took me awhile to actually understand what it's about . Sorry darling ( I know i've too much to ask) :X But don't understand must ask ma . haa !

Slept about 1plus 2am , i guess ? Darling bought new IPHONE ! 200bucks with singtel line with every month 40+buck . Quite cool ( Don't let your phone FLY away from your pocket AGAIN ) wahhaa ! Morning wake up feeling tired and was late , msg mel told her will be late something happen at home . (something not really nice to say about, SORRY ) Then she replied saying i've loads of nonsense . So i don't when did i have the kind of GUTS to even send her this " i'm sorry but this is not nonsense, you're not me that's why you won't understand what i feels" And she didn't really scolded me . But talk to me quite nicely so i said all this " How to tell my my stuff when you're my boss ? will you listen or even understand . I've my stress too but the stress that i'm facing of different from yours. Even if i tells you , you'll only tell me WORK & CAREER is more important then anything else . Don't mix PERSONAL matters with work ! Then why do you do so ? I admit that i'm still a kids and yes ! I still don't know how to handle thing and Whats going on next . I'm so afraid of going to work . I feels stress when i'm working ! I just wanna work , i don't wanna any heavy responsibility( I don't wanna be a supervisor , i don't wanna be in-charge of anything , i just wanna work and get paid , but not with that small amount of money and get scolded now and then ! ) I'm stress up and i'm tired Mel !!

She asked me to take a day leave but at night she text me but i didn't reply , asking me to take 3 days no pay leave ! I'm fine with it , i really need some space . I'm cope in the shop for one year. Getting scolded when she's not feeling good , being said a bitch and asked to ask my mummy to FCUK OFF ? What's this ? You said that i only know how to cry ! because i'm a freaking human and i've feelings ! And tell me ! What is there that i can do to handle you . We can't ! "We didn't talk back because we respect you !

I'm feeling stress , really stress . I don't wanna continue anymore . But the contract says must give 2 weeks in advance but i don't wanna go back anymore .I don't wanna face her ! Then how ?! I still haven't get my commission yet . I'm prepared to lose that money once i talked back to her . Its my effort . Earning that money made me feel like a farking shit !

I'm not complaining but i'm really tired out . I'm really really afraid of her . Darling , thank you . But i'm really feeling stress. Don't ask me what stress i'm facing but i really feel like crying . Working here , handling her , facing her ... needs alot alot of GUTS .

PS: That's darling ! And the bear bear (: .. I Love You Shan ! ( Can you send me the photo on your IPHONE ?) I love that photo ! please ..

Baby , i need someone now . I badly need to talk to you . What am i supposed to do . Everyone can tell me , just tell her nothing's wrong but i don't dare ! I don't dare! Or , just MIA ? Then it's about the contract now . I don't know . I'm not breaking down yet . But i need suggestion, i need opinion that i can do .. Nights .
I need a break from Mel ..

:''(

Confused !

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Few more days to August 1st.I should be happy isn't it ? But i'm seems confused! Should i leave here? I wanted a rest but i got no MONEY to rest . Ugh , baby's birthday coming as well . how uh ?! Hmmm , Confused ! Been so tired out , don't know why too . Had too much event going on?! hahas . Went to friends chalet, played mahjong . Just came back from HM's house for MJ too .
DIE la ! Addictive already . But I won 14bucks , played 1 2 . Walked home just now (save money) but baby say , no use one la take one cab to work not even enough eh . LOL. I really don't know what to do . Quit or not ? HELP! If quit also MIA , which people says that i'm good at but maybe not with my freaking boss .. HOW EH ?
Anyone HELP!!
Should i just get pasrt time first? I really wanted a rest so much . I've been waiting for the DAY to come and it's coming yet i'm so confused ..
Darling , i miss you eh ! Goodnight!
PS: See bab , i say i won't lose le right. LOL .Haven play keep telling me not to lose ! (Anyway i've prepared money to lose anyway) Haas !
Nights , I'm off to bed ,( maybe not .. )hee ..


I lost my tongue stud !

I'm so in loved with this CHOCOLATE !

Upset / Moody

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About the Cereal - Yes , i ate 3 bowl and i had diarrhea then vomit !
About the Mufin - My customer bake it , its not bad but can't even finish one and one cost about 3.50 , home-made muffin . (:

Yesterday went Power House with Dear alone . These photo were taken when we are on the way to concord to find baby then have breakfast . And the battery's about to flat so we just multi shot .
And the noodle suck ! Its about 4.30? Tmr still got to start work at 12pm and yes i took cab . Couldn't wake up , so freaking tired ! The songs not bad last night.

Today actually wanted to take half day leave ,not because i'm tired but still upset aboout darling's stuff . Darling , i get what you trying to tell me . Sorry for being selfish ! Because you're alway here for me , suddenly you're telling me , you won't be here anymore ? You told me you wanted to spend V day with "girlfriend" too , i can't be with you all the time . you want someone that you can see everyday . Im sorry .. But i still don't know how to react to you . You told me you don't like clubbing (then why did you went play and know new girl?) hmmm.. Hope to meet you soon . Maybe we should talk about it ..
- I miss you .. -

Actually wanted to go for movie but HM want MJ so ..
Went Mahjong again at HM's place. Tired out today ~
Night baby , love you !
Night darling ( Sorry)

Sld i be happy or upset?

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I'm at work . I'm actually feeling so moody regarding darling(RuoShan)'s stuff . Its really been long since she ever text me FIRST . Usually , she's always the first one to contact me . But recently, i'm always the first to text her and i always do txt her . And her replies will only come back like a few hours or a few days . I knew something's not right . She then told me , she actually knew a girl at play and she actually intend to go ahead with that girls . I'm not trying to be selfish but i know i am . She's always the one that i thought of whenever i'm upset or happy . I swear , she's always the one . I'll talk about anything under the sky.But i'm always not the first to know . I'm kind of upset over this for a few times . You said you didn't want me to see you when you're upset? then don't call me darling anymore . Am i not supposed to know if you're sad? that's not what a close friends should be.Its been so long , darling . Since i've been calling you darling. I'm sorry i didn't know how to appreciate you in the past . But now that i now , and i cherish every moment . I always ask her to come out but she forever not free . like once in a blue moon , she then will be free. I'm not trying to stop you being with her . You told me , everything will be the same afterall . Trust me , shan ! Nothing will be the same . How can someone accept that your girlfriend is close to another girl ? I can't , nobody can . I admit i'm selfish .

Maybe we should come out to talk about it ? I know there's actually nothing to talk about . You don't have to be answerable to me , you're not explainable to me . But i just felt so upset. I don't know why i'm so upset about . I should be happier then other that you actually got someone else, isn't it . But its not .

I need to think about it , why am i so upset . Maybe because you're always here but soon , you won't be there for me anymore? By then , we'll be drifting away . Further and Further . I told you before , i don't wish to stop in touch with you . But guess we have to do so . I suggest that we should not contact anymore . You asked me why . Because , no girlfriend will accept the fact the you're close to another girls. And untill then , then will i know we can't be as close anymore , all in a sudden how can i not be close to you ?
Girlfriend are everything under the world . because of this , we're going to be drifting apart ..

PS: Darling , i still love you as much . But i know it isn't the same anymore..
I hate to say this but "take care darling.."

Pedicure

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Went for Mahjong last night with baby , elder brother and huiming and bingbing. Love to eat something new that bing taught . Haa . Milk with honey and cornflake. So freaking nice!
Today was so tired , don't know why too then saw CY's msg "you wrking today" so i replied , "you want send me to work uh" haa . So he really send me to liang court(THANKS CHEE YAU) HAHA was supposed to go there to be "spy" ? LOL . My boss wanted me to do so and since it's free , why not ?

So went to Pink Palour at Liang Court . Basement 1, turn right and there it is . Its quite cosy and nice inside, and i like their customer services ! Its quiet because i'm the only customer. Was served chocolate ! I was like .. WAO , chocolates ! And there's movie to be watched and its Brides War ! Which i alway wanted to watch . But i watched half way , am going to continue later.. Because i'm not out to have fun but just to be a SPY and have to go back to my fucking work place =.=" Bored ! 10 MORE DAY to FREEDOM !

So was back to work about 1.30pm and she went out for lunch with her friends downstair. And she called me and said " huiting , come down and take the salads up and pour it into a bowl then bring the bowl back " So i went down and took e bowl up to pour the salads to another bwl and bring down . Then i pass the bowl to her and she actually pointed it to the boss there and nothing else came out of her GOLDEN mouth ! So i pass the bowl and went back ! So PISS ! She didn't even say Please or Thanks ! Its a manner , MY DEAR BOSS (: If you someone to do something , even if the someone is a MAID , you also have to say Thank You ! And i'm not even a MAID, do i look like a MAID to you ?! F*** ..

Alright , well just bear with it .. Times passed fast enought if not how do u think i can survive this ONE YEAR with her (: ! Nighties ..

*Love you Baby , Kisses*

PS: Lives to enjoy BUT , lives to enjoy happily NOT lives to enjoy miserably !
(:

The Chocolates Serve

The Colours Chart

Movies !

A BITCH?

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Its so boring staying at home! Yesterday went Tung Le with Allen , Tea , Agnes , Yuchong and Celine. So freaking pain my stomach , baby having fever as well . LOL. Order loads of stuff and loads of Prawn. Thanks Tea for peeling prawn for me ! hahas . But don't kao pei say only eat one prawn! Ordered freid rice and scallop W veg well, see what they did . Eat untill fried rice only rice , scallop with veg only left veg without scallop . =.=''

Guess what happened yesterday at work! i'm only late for like 5 minutes and she farking scolded me like i killed her pet or whatever man. Say that im a BITCH! She's then a farking BITCH man ! Does she knows what's a "bitch" means ?! She's a barking DOG man! Keep saying i'm a BITCH ! Then throw her freaking temper on me . " late 5 min , i deduct 5buck from your pay!" =.= I don't think i have even 5buck for 1hour ! LOl . " I'm your pay master , not Sheryl!' Yah , right but i'm not a Fucking Dog man . i'm just a freaking staff... "I'm going to ask Sheryl to go .. " Sheryl don't even prepared to stays ! Wake up la Old Virgin Hag ! " Don't let me SACK you ! " I don't even wanna stay after my bond ! A normal person won't be able to stand you and your stupid temper and smell man !

Wake up la !
Anyway , I'm so bored now . What else can i do ? Baby's having fever . =( Rest well if not the next one will be me going CRAZY ! =) love you !
PS: Stupid Tea ! say want take photo with me !? haha !

Agnes & Tea

Yu Chong & CEline

Huiting & Allen

Another Day..

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Its going to be 12 midnight soon . Its a tired day thou nothing much to do . After work baby came to meet me , we went to eat some shanghai food near my workplace there(circular road). Actually wanted to go out and meet friends but baby says that he's not feeling well . So went home and realise he got Fever . Was kind of disappointed that i actually can't go . But still , i have to stay at home to take care of him regardless of how disappointed i am .

Those are some of the perfume collection i have , not really collection but those that i love .
Davidaff(Cool water) ,Dior Addict 2 , Calvin Klein(CK1) and Paris Hilton ( Fairy Dust)..
Just bought CK1 not long ago , love that freaking smell . It smell Mature.. hahas . I love that Dior that darling bought for me last year .but finished already , haven't went to buy yet. All is nice , i love all . And that Jean Paul Gauliter , it smells great too . haven't buy yet (coming soon) LOL .

Baby bought this addidas jacket for me the week before . Wanted it fot quite a long time . I actually wanted it in black but no more stock . So got this for $80+ (up. $122) . Its rather cheap..Thanks baby . Rest well , i won't go anywhere . Sorry for the tears, just wanted to go so much. Darling , don't think so much if u want can talk to me . I'm galdy to tell you , i'm free (: Goodnight .

Sushi baby !

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(: ! Just had my Sushi with Allen and CheeYau. At OUB building near the MRT station there(Sakae Sushi Dinner Buffet) And i ended work at aroung 8.20 , the dinner last oder is @ 8.30. LOL . Order too much food at once . Had to order if not cant order anymore already and cant finish in the end . My god its too much . haahas.
Thanks CY for the FAKE Cucci landyard ! haa but i like it lar ~ (: Thou its FAKE .. but its alright . =X Babby , but i want a real one (Added to Wish List) Nothing much going on today, just that had a Flu this afternoon . Out of sudden had a cold , and i feel so sleepy but can't sleep and nothing to do , had to wait till 6.30 before customers comes and DRAG till 8.20pm . LOL .
Full , so made fun of the Sushi rice . LOL can't finish anyway . haha . I think it's funny , isn't it ?!
Just for fun anyway ! (:


叙诗曼 My freaking god , she's god damn gorgeous . She's too perfect. ILOVEHER !