Went to Darling's house to stay last night. Went for movie at PS before heading to her house at 12plus. Watched Fifty Dead Men Walking , not bad the movie but its like polictical movie . Took me awhile to actually understand what it's about . Sorry darling ( I know i've too much to ask) :X But don't understand must ask ma . haa !
Slept about 1plus 2am , i guess ? Darling bought new IPHONE ! 200bucks with singtel line with every month 40+buck . Quite cool ( Don't let your phone FLY away from your pocket AGAIN ) wahhaa ! Morning wake up feeling tired and was late , msg mel told her will be late something happen at home . (something not really nice to say about, SORRY ) Then she replied saying i've loads of nonsense . So i don't when did i have the kind of GUTS to even send her this " i'm sorry but this is not nonsense, you're not me that's why you won't understand what i feels" And she didn't really scolded me . But talk to me quite nicely so i said all this " How to tell my my stuff when you're my boss ? will you listen or even understand . I've my stress too but the stress that i'm facing of different from yours. Even if i tells you , you'll only tell me WORK & CAREER is more important then anything else . Don't mix PERSONAL matters with work ! Then why do you do so ? I admit that i'm still a kids and yes ! I still don't know how to handle thing and Whats going on next . I'm so afraid of going to work . I feels stress when i'm working ! I just wanna work , i don't wanna any heavy responsibility( I don't wanna be a supervisor , i don't wanna be in-charge of anything , i just wanna work and get paid , but not with that small amount of money and get scolded now and then ! ) I'm stress up and i'm tired Mel !!
She asked me to take a day leave but at night she text me but i didn't reply , asking me to take 3 days no pay leave ! I'm fine with it , i really need some space . I'm cope in the shop for one year. Getting scolded when she's not feeling good , being said a bitch and asked to ask my mummy to FCUK OFF ? What's this ? You said that i only know how to cry ! because i'm a freaking human and i've feelings ! And tell me ! What is there that i can do to handle you . We can't ! "We didn't talk back because we respect you !
I'm feeling stress , really stress . I don't wanna continue anymore . But the contract says must give 2 weeks in advance but i don't wanna go back anymore .I don't wanna face her ! Then how ?! I still haven't get my commission yet . I'm prepared to lose that money once i talked back to her . Its my effort . Earning that money made me feel like a farking shit !
I'm not complaining but i'm really tired out . I'm really really afraid of her . Darling , thank you . But i'm really feeling stress. Don't ask me what stress i'm facing but i really feel like crying . Working here , handling her , facing her ... needs alot alot of GUTS .
PS: That's darling ! And the bear bear (: .. I Love You Shan ! ( Can you send me the photo on your IPHONE ?) I love that photo ! please ..
Baby , i need someone now . I badly need to talk to you . What am i supposed to do . Everyone can tell me , just tell her nothing's wrong but i don't dare ! I don't dare! Or , just MIA ? Then it's about the contract now . I don't know . I'm not breaking down yet . But i need suggestion, i need opinion that i can do .. Nights .
I need a break from Mel ..
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