love

Who believes in love in first-sight? I do ..

Been through lots and lots of relationship. From a child to teenage , primary sch to secondary to ite and working life. No doubt that i really tried my best in all . I love and i hurt some of them . I cried and smiled for them . I changed and changed for them . To the me today . Of cause i thanks them for loving me , at least at the end , i was loved by everyone of them . We put our effort in the relationship well, our best . What happened in the end , nobody expected and wants it this way . At least , we knew we tried . By accepting and rejecting peoples in life . We're always out looking for love , you and me ,everyone needs love . Being loved by people you love , being pampered by people you wish to be pampered by . Those memories , not to be forgotten by kept inside , deep inside the box you have in your heart. Lock it up , when your alone unlock it and flick thru every page of it . Then , you will realise how silly and how stupid or how .. Happy you used to be , for that someone ..

Im 21 this year well , i'm still young like what everyone says . Which i don't deny (: I happened to met this very guy . Seen him a couples of time , but didn't manage to talk one more 2 sentence . I believe in Fates, do you? There's so many many people living in this world , but somehow you met him and know him ..

Why not the others? (: I alway tell myself , if i saw someone i like or happen that when i look him , somehow i just feel like smiling back to him . Don't let him go , be it that weather in the future , there's chances of the two of you being together or not, get his number and keep in contact . Well , i did . who cares weather it's the girl who wanna know the guy , as long as how the story ends . And yeah , i got his number by myself . It's 21st century man . So Who cares . And , our stories starts on that day ...

Like any other couples/friends , we went out for movies , dinner and for a walk . I like the feeling though . Just like how you just know a new friend , just that it's a friend that you hope he could be yours in times to come .

Met for a couples of day , as usual went for movies and .. Club . Things not getting very nice when he told me , he've a gf . Of cause my heart stop beating and it hurts . Well , expected isn't it? A well-groomed , nice , polite guy , a gentleman should have a gf by his side . Just because i believed what he said . No , no gf . So well , i though i hold the ball but nah .. I got myself upset , shagged-out , cried my lungs out . I'm fine after a few days , fine ? I'm not but i have to . So i am .. Photos taken but can't be posted out , just like you had your food inside your mouth but yet you can't swallow . Being in the street but yet can't hold him in your arms .

As time passed  by , things got better . Meet up every single days . Do what every couples do .

Held hand , hugged and kissed . All along , i know how he feels and i know exactly how i feels . Infact, everyone knows. One very day , he placed he ring that he loved onto my finger and told me to be his wife .

In a not very sober attitude , in a not very proper place with no proper arrangement and stuff . And The time we know each other isn't long enough for this. But i agreed .

Like i said , Who don't wanna stay with theirs love one forever . I want it too . Well , like me too , everyone think and says , how could that be . Just like how we are when we're in secondary schools . Used to play marriages games too . But i'm serious . I'm serious in every relationship . But this time i'm serious in being with that someone i love forever .

Why i like him ? I don't deny , the first time i saw him . He's cute (:

Because he's cute , so he's in my list . As time goes by , i like him being himself . I like to see him by my bed when i wake up in the morning and goes to bed at night . I like him having the food that i made . I like him telling people , She's my wife . 

Untill then , i still haven't really really know him . I want to know every single bit of it . Untill i could read you like a book . Even if it breaks my heart , tears my lungs.At least i know this is you and your life . Till now , i haven't have the courage to ask you , how's thing between you and her . And what's now between you and me .

This isn't for show or a temp relationship . I'm holding on for whichever reason , it's all because its you and for myself . It's a not battle , it's not war . It's just a simple simple relationship i want from you . 

This is life in love. So i'm still here because..

I love you . I do I do and I do..

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I suddenly envy all my friend whose married , they look so happy (:

Whats my dream wedding , whats yours ,love?!

Ugh , im reaallllyy really broke already =(