LIFE

I'm too sensitive for words i know . I categories myself under emotional.
Xann talked to me on the phone . First time , i felt how serious she was . And of cause i know your meaning .
I seriously see no meaning in my life this year. Maybe these few months . A job is all i needed for now . To do everything i can , to have everything i can , to go anywhere i can with money .
Blame it on my laziness ! Ugh , bad point i have .
Alright i'll serioulsy take up a job okay . Not for anyone , perhaps just for myself . Weather to earn money or spent time wisely or make new friends ..
To me , this period is for growing up . To learn more thing and see more peoples. So there's such person in the world .
I can still continue having this kind of life . i just needed get a job , be it part time ot full time .

Some things it's so hard to open my mouth and tell you . Be it a secret or lies . That's why i said , i don't feel myself . Memories been really bad . Can't remember what i did .
Someone told me , do you feel bad ? Yes i do . But the thought of the hurt i've been taking or taken . Maybe it's more then enough to cover all the hidden truth . Maybe its all an excuses or stupid reason . I know . But accept it  , cause it's my explantion for myself .
As for my friends , like i said words and action is just a thin line in between . Actually i don't even know what i wanna say or explain . Trust me , i need a break in this country . Not that i'm having stress . I mean , yes i do  but it's not that serious . But anyway , i just wanna get out of here for maybe awhile . I need to get some fresh air ! (:

That's why i said " Don't ever tell a lie , because it won't be just A lie at the end of the day.. "

SARA ! Please get your ass back to the bed now . Close your eye and rest your body !