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Hi , Good to see myself normal again . So nice to have craving for food and sleep again .
But i hate it when i have craving .I ate too much ! Awwww. But it's somehow so nice to face my friend with the normal self .
I don't want them to see me down too . And when something isn't right ..

That day when i came home from meeting him , i had a sleep then i woke up feeling so hungry . After so long , it feels so great to have food inside my stomach . Then met allen for a talk . And when back to sleep again . Slept for kinda long . Then woke up and went to TW park for chee yau's birthday celebration. So nice to see my friends again. Peizhen wanted to go club so all of sudden we went to PH again LOL .
Chit chat with the girl - I love the way we 're now . (:

Was like Fucking drunk . Saw xann and gang . Something bad happen at first but , she was there when i'm down , drunnk. Thanks . Really , it's not that i don't appreciate what you did but i hope you understand that i really can't give you anything back in returns. And i don't know what to give you too . But i can be there when you'rre down too . Woke up at 5plus today . Went out with Agnes , tea , cy and allen . Went for dinner then for MJ . Talk and talk and talk . I like the way i am now . (: Then went to return car to joel with Allen . Smooth journey ! Haaa . Thanks Allen , he's the safest person you can put me with even in a room with just the both of us (:

Then i realise , actually the place that i went to is the place you brought to the first time we met . The petrol station there , you remember? We've nowhere to go so you drove there and keep thinking where to bring me to. Loads of stuff went thru my mind when i saw the place . It's too much to be said so everything 's just kept inside . To keep it safe . All these days i have been thru , it's nightmare . I don't know how much it might affect you, i really don't know how much it might hurts you . I wish i had known . But when i see the tears running in your eye , it hurts me a million times . To know that it actually breaks your heart .

I don't know how important i am to him . I don't how much i meant to him . I don't know how much he wants me . I don't how much he'll yearn for me . I don't know how much it hurts when i'm hurt . I don't know how much he meant when he say he meant what he says.. I could only see what i can see , hear what i can hear . I don't know strong is the love he had for me . I know he want me safe and happy . But if you asked me , is it as a friend who cares for one another or someone that really means something to him , i don't know..

I can break down a thousand times but i still have to get up at the end of the day. Like what people tells me "Even if you're sad or happy , you still have to live one more day .. " Which i agreed to but somehow , it isn't as easy as it seems to be .

Does distances make people move further from you or closer to you?
What if one day .... All these waiting and pinning makes me numb ? And i decided not to wait anymore?
Will you still tells me , you meant what you said?
Saying all this isn't easy for me , and tears just rolled down.
Or actually , you're just waiting for the day to come? The thought of you might leave me once and for all tear my heart into pieces. Those happy moment flashed back in my mind , I miss him .
God , tell him i miss him can you?
Let him feel the true heart , can you?
I know he's trying to find back the feeling btw the both of them . What if what happen to me happens on her? How would he react ?
what if one day i walked up to him and say " Hi dave , how have you been ?" What would it be like ?

I WISH I COULD JUST STOP BEING A NUISANCE !