You know how beautiful it look when the sun sets today?

But it look like it's tearing to the earth .

Baby..

I'm missing you badly

I miss the first time we met

I miss the first time we went to eat

I miss the way you asked me why do i love you

I miss the way you saying "love wo right"

I miss the way you laugh,it's really cute

I miss the way you sing the songs

I miss the way you look at me and smile

I miss you kissing me to bed

I miss the way you said "iloveyou"

I miss you the way when you came back from thailand

I miss you acting angry

I miss you being angry

I miss you telling me about the future

I miss you telling me about people i don't know

I miss you cooking the porridge

I miss the way we got into the rain together

I miss the voice saying " My girlfriend.."

I miss waiting for you to fetch me
I miss closing my eye and listen to your bike

I miss asking you what time to wake up

I miss the way you react when you see flying insects

I miss the way you drink your beer

I miss the way when you were drunk

I miss watching television with you

I miss the way you behaving like a lil kid

I miss you wanting me to hug you when you are riding

I miss the way you made me smiled

I miss the way we were before we go to sleep

I miss the morning when you hug me when you wake up

I miss watching you play the DS

I miss watching you playing basketball

I miss you playing game online

I miss talking about hello kitty with you

I miss you telling your friend you won't play with bike because you have a girlfriend

I miss you covering blanket for me

I miss you telling me how you are feeling

I miss you asking me to send you songs

I miss the way we were 2 weeks ago

I miss you asking me do i miss you,

And yes baby i do, i do .

I Miss You =''(

TO mummy : Thanks mummy . For the hello kitty's stuff you gave a seconds ago. you know i need you know .. =''(

Went down to pass him his stuff.He brought my stuff too . The feeling totally sucks . wanting to hold him back . But i never did so. Because i know i can't , do it , Tears flow when i walk away. How much i wanted to turn back. But i never .

A feeling that no one ever like . Neither do i .

Anyone , to the sea?

I dreamt alot last night . Woke up alot of times too . Mummy , imisshim =''(

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 Thanks Xing . (''=

He said he will call and yes he did . My heart didn't stop beating but instead it beat even faster then ever . It's the first time i felt this way . And i know , i will never feel it anymore because he won't call anymore . Like how he used to . He asked me to pack his clothes , he will get it tomorrow night . And i know tomorrow night will come . What does this mean? Getting back stuff and no longer contact anymore? I'm really going crazy. Went to his house downstair hoping to see him. To take a look at him . He's not home .. Can't even take a glance at his bike . at all..

Text him . Asking if he will come back , he said no . " Its either friend or nothing" Someone tell me this before " I'll rather be your nothing then your friend " But now , I rather be his friend then nothing . IMis him . =''(

Enough of tears

Enough of drinking

Enough of thinking

Enough of everything ..

Everyone tells me this , But i rather think of him then nothing at all.. It's the motivation of every little thing now . Nothing else that i can do . Except for waiting and thinking .

What's tomorrow supposed to be? Like he took his stuff and go off? Looking at his shadow and back view . Walking further and further away from me ..  ?

I never wanted to see this . But i know i have to . In order to look at him once more .

I've never told anyone how i feels . Never asked anyone what should i do.This time i kept quiet . Just keeping quiet and listening to songs and tearing to myself.
There's nothing else i could do ..

I was never given a chance .ALl i wanted is a chance ..

ilovehim .

ilovehim

ilovehim

ilovehim

ilovehim

iloveyou weilong =''(

PS: Someone told me someone posted in facebook,

" It's a miracle that People can forgive everything in order for the person to stays"

Now i know what it mean .

I never do anything to hurt myself

I never Went drnking till i'm drop death

I never do anything wrong

Because he say no..

I'm not like in the past

I'm never wild like before

I know i have changed

Because he say i must ..

He say he will dote on me if i love myself ..

Will he ever know ?

=''(

It's hurting and it's torturing .

AhXing said " you're huiting leh"

"This time you really lose.."

"I've never seen you this way bfore"

Xing . Because it's him ..

Imisshim .

I'm losing my sense soon .. I knnow you can see .

Imisshim ..

='''''''((((((

You told me you will  forget her

you told me you won't make me cry

You told you will mke me happy

You told me you will bring me to meet all your friends

You told me you will bring me gold shop to repair my bracelet

You told me you will bring me go fishing

You told me you will bring me to thailand

You told me you will bring me along for new year next year

You told me you will bring me for movie

You told me i must eat every meal

You told me you will scold me if i did something wrong

You told me to ask you to stay

You promise me you will love me , baby.

You Promise never to go ..

I need you now.

You asked me to give you a chance, i did.

Can i ask you to give me a chance too =''(

PS: Crying mean the tears never stop. For you, it won't ..

The promises

It's the third day already . Ever since you called . The pain is unbearable . But i know i have to bear with it . Baby i miss you badly. No matter how drunk i'm , How tired i'm , i know i just can't get you off my mind . I can't get to bed . I can't stop the tears from flowing out anymore .

IM iss Y ou .

That's the only thing left to say . The only thing that i can do. Nothing else anymore. Baby , you know i miss you . you knew it , don't you ?  =''(

Went for movie at lot one with allen and jian for 2012 . Nice movie affterall . Touching movies !

Will update photos for KITTYLAB with him soon. And Cedric's bday's photo ..

Really got no mood to update all this . Mahjong with friends ..

Drinking with friends . But still , when night falls .. Nobody knows what happen next.

Lying on the bed with your jacket , the smells still lingers there. Listening to song you loved.

Hugging the pillow and letting the tears flow by itself .

Let the wind dry the tears ..

I don;t know what else to do anymore.

Not by talking o friends . Which i told no one ..

Having to know what happens , i rather keep it to myself ..

And i did .

How silly it is but i feels good not telling anyone anything .Maybe ? Maybe i will feel better ?

Wasn't like this in the past . Talk lesses now . Because i feel , telling someone who isn't you or him ,

no use at all . It won't helps in anything . What else other then telling you what to do when you yourself already knew that it doesn't helps at all ..

Trust me . Althought it suck keeping it to yourself but , rather then listening to stuff that you won't do.

Baby , you know how i feels ?

PS: I'll be good i promise . All i ask for is for you to come back .. =''(