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 Thanks Xing . (''=

He said he will call and yes he did . My heart didn't stop beating but instead it beat even faster then ever . It's the first time i felt this way . And i know , i will never feel it anymore because he won't call anymore . Like how he used to . He asked me to pack his clothes , he will get it tomorrow night . And i know tomorrow night will come . What does this mean? Getting back stuff and no longer contact anymore? I'm really going crazy. Went to his house downstair hoping to see him. To take a look at him . He's not home .. Can't even take a glance at his bike . at all..

Text him . Asking if he will come back , he said no . " Its either friend or nothing" Someone tell me this before " I'll rather be your nothing then your friend " But now , I rather be his friend then nothing . IMis him . =''(

Enough of tears

Enough of drinking

Enough of thinking

Enough of everything ..

Everyone tells me this , But i rather think of him then nothing at all.. It's the motivation of every little thing now . Nothing else that i can do . Except for waiting and thinking .

What's tomorrow supposed to be? Like he took his stuff and go off? Looking at his shadow and back view . Walking further and further away from me ..  ?

I never wanted to see this . But i know i have to . In order to look at him once more .

I've never told anyone how i feels . Never asked anyone what should i do.This time i kept quiet . Just keeping quiet and listening to songs and tearing to myself.
There's nothing else i could do ..

I was never given a chance .ALl i wanted is a chance ..

ilovehim .

ilovehim

ilovehim

ilovehim

ilovehim

iloveyou weilong =''(

PS: Someone told me someone posted in facebook,

" It's a miracle that People can forgive everything in order for the person to stays"

Now i know what it mean .

I never do anything to hurt myself

I never Went drnking till i'm drop death

I never do anything wrong

Because he say no..

I'm not like in the past

I'm never wild like before

I know i have changed

Because he say i must ..

He say he will dote on me if i love myself ..

Will he ever know ?

=''(

It's hurting and it's torturing .

AhXing said " you're huiting leh"

"This time you really lose.."

"I've never seen you this way bfore"

Xing . Because it's him ..

Imisshim .

I'm losing my sense soon .. I knnow you can see .

Imisshim ..

='''''''((((((