Having a friendship

"I do all this because I Love You and because it's you ..

No mattter how people outside tells me , I still go ahead with my decision.I'm taking a gamble . Weather It's a lose or win thingy,i'm still trying my luck . "

No matter What you treat me as , I'm okay with that .
You said you miss me , i told you i'll believe anything you said .
But your words last night hurts quite alot But , i'm still fine (=

Went causeway with BoonTai last night to watch Case 36 . Thriller movie . Scary lar ~ But Not too bad . This idiot here TRYS hard to scared me . LOL . Thanks for trying but too bad . I'm afraid of ghost but not monster ! Haa (=

And next time bring me to someone to have nice Cheng Tng . Not when i buy ler then you tell me not nice =.= Haa ..

For you : I appreciate everything that you did . And i did listen to what you said . After so many year , i really hope for now , i could be more mature and not hurt anyone else,including you . So , For now , We're really really good friend alright (= .

Because , i'm afraid of hurting someone else rather then hurting myself ..

A friends could be forever no matter how bad or good it will be .But a lover won't be forever  together..  (:

Hey, we won't like this before this .. See you soon okay!! And please don't scared me at night yoh!!

(:(:(:

AND ! Please don't say anything about your case ler . Enjoy the time now ! I'll be enjoying with you too !! Haa .

To Ianie : Thanks for the lovely msg you'd sent me . It's sweet ya (: . Thanks for cheering me up . Haa and i did smiled okay !! Loves ! (=

After Causeway went home then to meet Weijie downstair . Grow up ler huh !!? It's like watching you grow up ! Haa. The feeling rocks leh~ Who dare say you ugly , You damn cute man . Don't worry about finding girlfriend la . You're still young , not tat i'm old but . Slowly lah dude (: Anything just give me a call , I'll be there alright .. But don't tell me you like me again ! LOL . You called me JIE so , call me that still !! Haa .. I will scare de leh .

"Don't think too much ! "

Not to worry

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Link to my friends's blogshop . Anything that you girls like , text me or give me a call . should be able to get a discount for it (:

Pubs at Alexandra's road . I don't know what's the name .

Alrigh . The Toilet's damn cool ! LOL

WenTai and Linhes

He's getting drunk , That's why =X

Hmmm, Primary schools friends . Great to see you gus again .

Thanks for the night (: I know you aren't that bad afterall . Nice place anyway (:

Linhes , next time cannot drink , don't drink leh ~ LOL .

Look like an Idiot . haa !!

The only thing now is to look down and not to think of anything =)

But , when there's nicer thing for me to see, i'll look up for sure ..

Promise people not to write anything about him anymore .. TRYing . LOL.

How silly can i be

Went out . Then to the Disco beside lot one with angie . How fun she can be (:

How matter how happy the day could be , When nights fall ...

No matter how drunk i can be , I will still be awake .

Had been dreaming of him every single night . Because i'd been thinking of him every single day . But there were no dream when he slept beside ..

Anyone tells me weather he actually cares? Or it that what he wants only .I'm feeling damn  damn upset . Or should i just leave him alone and not txt him ..

How bad it can get !!I'm really really bearing everything . I'm really really swallowing everything . Everything seems fine at his side . Why not me ?

Shang de shi hou , She mo ye shuo bu cu kou

Bu xiang qu xiang ta

Dan wo zhi dao , Yong yuan dou bu ke neng zhuo dao

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Remember the voices on the phone

It's 8.30am in the morning . Came back from weilong's place . -Heartpain-

Yesterday went MJ at Cy's place and drinking at night with them . Went over to his place ..

He told me , he's happy that i've grown up . I like the smile on his face . It's the first time he told me he's happy . But added " Why not last time when you're this way now .."

Asked me to wake him up at 8am . I did . I thought he had to go to work . But instead he pick up his phone , and called this very person which i don't know who it was . I never asked .. You know something? I really changed .. I chose to keep my mouth shut for this very person .

The voice to the person he called , How sweet it cAn get  . I suddenly remember the first time he called me to wake me up . It's the small tone of voices . How i miss that tone of his ..

How gentle it was .. But it wasn't to me . One words can kill me deep inside .

Baby , it hurts . I realise , for this person ..

My tears became dryer . On the way home , instead of thinking of who he called and etc .. I was thinking of how beatiful it is to see him again . How fast a person can change ..

I could never imagine i could be like this . Is this what e called grown up? Or it's because it's him and ,it's hurting untill the limit ?

You asked me to text you when i reached home , Is it just a responsibility or do you cared ?

I'm home , i won't text you . I'm not young anymore , i can find my way home no matter how far it gets . Just like how i'm finding my way out no matter how hurts it get . Just like how bad it hurt..

It really hurts =(

No more tears yet i feels terrible inside .

I miss you . I do ..

How sweet the voices can get .

How he can even get up to call this person

How my heart tear into pieces..

How much it's tearing inside

How much i wanted to asked him .

But i never..

Who can believe i actually did so ,

not even me ..

 PS: Tell me why tears don't drop anymore?it hurt lesser when i cry out . But it doesn't anymore ..So it hurts me even more then ever ..

失去的东西失去了, 伤害的还是伤害, 道歉并不能让时间倒转, 也不能让发生的事情过去.

With the one i loved

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Just realise sometihng , My title alway link with my label (:

Went Johor with jonathan . Went singing at Neway. Went to meet uncle Kin at Holiday plaza.

Mummy daddy came . Went to eat steamboat . Uncle Kin's birthday too . Happy bday !

-Tell you something-

I'm missing him right now . Now and then , he never left my mind . I miss him  . I really do .Even Wanting to find a topic is so hard . He won't know how i'm feeling . I'm just childish in his point of views . I've never been good in handling broken relationship but i alway know thing will be alright in the end . But this time , i lost to myself . A battle that will never "won" . This time round , i know thing won't be the same . I'm not the same too anymore . Not asking for much . Even tears drop down more quieter . Woman's instinct are real and true . This time i tried so hard to tell myself , no it wasn't real . It's just a feeling because he left . Told mummy , I miss him . She knows i do .

My hearts turning sour. Even when i cried , i smiled too ..

It's not telling myself  it's over . But , It's over but it came before .. One and only guy that made me lose . It's not long but , I've changed . Everyone said so ..

Wishing but not wanting him to come back . But hoping he will fall in love with me , once more ..

I always believe in " you don't have to change a thing for someone that loved you"

But now i believd in " You have to changed for that someone you loved  .. "

Thou , how upset my past post is . I know when he's around with me . Nothing else matters . Now that's he's not around , but i gueess , he stays in my <3 ..

You know , how much i love you..

You know how hard it is to tell you this . 

I cried but i smiled (''=
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Forgot the date . But ah xing brought me to toa payoh to sing then to Ang mo kio is it ? To eat (:
Er , i think it's 20th of nov

After snging ..

Before and after ........

The different btw guy and girl .

We are really good friends , good buddy (: Appreciated for everything but for yourself , don't go back to her . okay . It's for your own good . But your choice still ..

Hi My Sweetheart

Its 6.30am in the morning ~yawn~

Just watched "Hi my sweetheart" Eps 4 .Waiting for Eps5

Ughh , Please load it asap!

So damn freaking nice , omg .

I'm falling in love with Rainie again !!

OMg , So in love with this drama !!

Miss him suddenly .. (:

海派甜心

I don't deny i'm childish but i'm not like last time anymore . Because it's you .

I won't say i'm mature enough . But at least i know what i'm doing .

I'm sorry to send you all those message . All i wanted was to catch your attention .

I'm sorry .

I will rather let you scold me on the phone , that's the only way i could hear your voices . That's the only way i have left . What else can i talk to you about .

I know you wanted me good . But as a friend and otherwise , it's a different story..

It's a different motive .

I'm preparing myself for the worst .Goodnight

To Xann : I know i'm harsh but what i say is what i mean  .

He asked me to tell you . If you want to talk back behind him , Better don't, if want tell him straight into his face . That's all .

海派甜心! Nice movie .

Love her to the Max ! (:

No more tear darling girl ,because there are more beautiful thing that you can smile to (::

家後

Went to meet Pricillia to Da Gu's house . Went drinking at her home . Then to opposite Ten mile de pub with Da Gu , Jenny ahyi , Pricillia and myself . Open Martell . Then back to Her house to continue the Martell. Both my dear cousin , -Faint- LOL Anyway , Really thankful for everything . Thanks for being by my side . =)

Nice Song ..

He loved this song too , i remember still ..

PS: Smile to pass the day happily . Keep the tears away from the eye of yours . What matters is to Smile . Because i love that smile of yours ,huiting (:

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bABY i'm really really happy on that day . Rain cats and dog that day.Thanks for wanting to protect me from rains

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BABY I MISS YOU !!