It's 8.30am in the morning . Came back from weilong's place . -Heartpain-
Yesterday went MJ at Cy's place and drinking at night with them . Went over to his place ..
He told me , he's happy that i've grown up . I like the smile on his face . It's the first time he told me he's happy . But added " Why not last time when you're this way now .."
Asked me to wake him up at 8am . I did . I thought he had to go to work . But instead he pick up his phone , and called this very person which i don't know who it was . I never asked .. You know something? I really changed .. I chose to keep my mouth shut for this very person .
The voice to the person he called , How sweet it cAn get . I suddenly remember the first time he called me to wake me up . It's the small tone of voices . How i miss that tone of his ..
How gentle it was .. But it wasn't to me . One words can kill me deep inside .
Baby , it hurts . I realise , for this person ..
My tears became dryer . On the way home , instead of thinking of who he called and etc .. I was thinking of how beatiful it is to see him again . How fast a person can change ..
I could never imagine i could be like this . Is this what e called grown up? Or it's because it's him and ,it's hurting untill the limit ?
You asked me to text you when i reached home , Is it just a responsibility or do you cared ?
I'm home , i won't text you . I'm not young anymore , i can find my way home no matter how far it gets . Just like how i'm finding my way out no matter how hurts it get . Just like how bad it hurt..
It really hurts =(
No more tears yet i feels terrible inside .
I miss you . I do ..
PS: Tell me why tears don't drop anymore?it hurt lesser when i cry out . But it doesn't anymore ..So it hurts me even more then ever ..
失去的东西失去了, 伤害的还是伤害, 道歉并不能让时间倒转, 也不能让发生的事情过去.
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